Well since I am bloggin about dating I thought I would mention my most recent experience. Not so much per say as an experience but more of a piece of info. A couple months back I went on this date with this guy which I had thought was going really well. He was funny, attractive, similar sense of humor...yada yada. We went out for about 3 other dates. And even though I was liking this guy, something was giving me a gut feeling something was off. I even talked to my girlfriends about it. I kept thinking to myself, "I think he is dating someone else"...which that specifically I didnt have a problem with, but he was still asking me out...but it was in sperts. I was thinking that if a guy really was into me he would make an effort...call me, ask me to go out, do what he had to do because he couldnt be away. He was texting me almost everday so the confusion was laying on thick. Well he was polite enough to at least tell me after about 3/4 dates that he was dating someone else and it was going well with her. I was pretty bummed but I respected his honesty about the situation.
This has not been the first similar situation... so my gut was right. So I deleted him from my FB friends page, from my phone...everything. I was liking the guy but I was not liking the fact he wasnt diggin on me so why keep him around. I met him on a dating website, not a friend website, so in my mind I had no need to keep the connection.
Well as of tonight, I just found out he is apparently dating a friend/acquaintance of mine. This is the story of my life. Always the girl but never "the one".
It's ok, I will keep on dating and see what life has in store for me. positive thoughts. But those who know me and know me well, know the frustration I feel.
People keep saying it will come....but most of them time that is being said by those who are in love...those who have not been single for 3+ years. Most of this time I chose to be single. But It can be slightly frustrating and discouraging when I am not the one they choose when I think the spark is there. I cant push what is absent. So I continue to be who I am regardless.When it is said the guy is going with someone else..fine...okay. But when they are chosing someone I have gotten to know and hits a little closer to home for some reason the pain seems a little more real for some reason. And I dont even know if pain would even be the best description.
I will move forward. Move up. bite my words and choke on my emotions because all of that will subside and regurgitate.
Here is to my 2 dates this weekend.
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